A moment to spare…
A moment to live on…
A great moment to savor the inseparable time…

Why am i saying these things?…

knowing that there is no “us”
Either “them” is not being called upon…
I am nobody…..whose anybody’s worth… (gets mo?)
Exactly the real thing…that no one owns me..

I am not pushing the time frame to be in a rush…
I am just wonderin’ why..this is happening to me..
Life is really putting hard on me…really harsh…

The evidence had manifested my fate..
….it shows clearly….
though it’s very vague….
and some mixed signals are being shattered around the way…
I can see…the outcome…
and I can’t control them.

Im wearing an invincible smile…
Im wearing masks…
Maybe you can call me the most disturbed hypocrite..in the world.
Can’t you see??
can’t you see that im almost totally wasted.

Im trying to put the colors in my life..
Taking a chance to be more broad in a spectrum..
one day… just for one more day…
I want..to feel that way again…
Even if it will be my last day….on the grounds.


I love those stars…those wishing and falling stars…
but they are not meant for wishing and dreamin’..
because..those stars are meant to be broken
and suddenly they will vanish without a trace,
wherein they will become new again..
and start all over…
to brighten up and fall again…


Im confused..and i really do..

wrong time..
wrong move..
wrong feelings..
wrong love..
wrong emotions..

I miss those rainy nights..
I miss those cold nights..
When we lay in bed.
Do you look at me,,the way i look at you?..
are those eyes..who brightens me up…are very significant to keep?

It started out with a kiss..
how come..it’s just only a kiss…
oowww…awwww… i can’t help but to weep..

sometimes goodbyes are not forever…
not all moments do lasts forever…
maybe forever is not truly forever…

It’s all my fault.

I didn’t mean to…
truly I am..

I can’t help but to cry…and unwind…
when those things keep on coming through my mind….
I can’t help it..


Im asking..where am i….?
Where should I put myself in?…at the first place…ayt?

Poor me….
the angst and longingness…is living on me..
those wistful times…that im trying conceal..

I just wanna be with you..
and take care of you..
keep you like there’s no tomorrow..within my life..
I wanna fill up those empty spaces..(but no i can’t..i can’t)
those times..when im with you..it feels like…there’s a missing piece..
time is really ticking.. very fast..
warm hugs..and inevitable smiles…
haaaayy…. *sigh*


There’s no place for me to do these things..
Someone is doing already that for you..
and much more affection..done…compare to me..

Broken rainbows and wicked hearts,
marshiee